i REALLY need to lose weight

I am a typical overweight person – I’ve struggled with my weight most of my life. I’m 5’2″, so weight doesn’t distribute very well on me.

In high school I was about 150-165 lbs. When I got pregnant at 23 my weight went to its highest at 230 lbs (shudder). At that time I joined Weight Watchers Online and lost 38 lbs before getting pregnant with YD.  Since giving birth to YD in 2004, my weight has fluctuated between 203-218. I did get down to 198 before Christmas, however, that flew out the window with the other stress I’ve been under. Currently my weight is holding somewhat steady around 214. I’m a classic emotional eater. I eat when I’m happy, sad, bored, upset, angry.

I’ve joined WWO 2-3 times in the past 4 years. Usually I will start out well, eating healthy. This lasts for 1-4 months until something happens (I get sick, holidays, some major stress comes up) and I completely fall off the bandwagon.

Right now my BMI is 39. Needless to say that’s almost twice what is considered healthy. And you know what? I’m scared. I’m scared I will never lose the weight I need and want to lose. I’m scared I’m going to get back on WW and will follow the same paths as last time. I’m scared I’m going to have a heart attack before I’m 35. I’m scared my children will hate me when they get older because I’m fat.

I’ve been doing a ton of research on different things that could possibly help me in my quest to lose weight and be healthier. One thing I found that seems promising is that weight loss drug that probably sounds familiar from your spam folder – Phentermine.  From the research I’ve done it seems like it could really help me get going with my weight loss and give me enough motivation to continue once I stop taking it.

You might be thinking that I’m looking for a quick fix, but that couldn’t be further from the truth. The truth is, I’ve tried everything I feel comfortable trying. I’ve been on weight watchers, medifast, the 6 week body makeover, atkins, the cereal diet, plain old eating healthier. Nothing, by itself, has been enough to help me lose a significant amount of the weight I want to lose.

My thoughts behind trying Phentermine (or something similar) is using it to supplement eating healthier (which I’ve been working on for the past few months anyway) and getting more exercise (again, something I’ve been working on with little luck). If my doctor agrees to let me try it out for 3 months, I really feel that that will be enough time to take off some weight and get into the habit of really eating healthier and getting more exercise. Even if it only helps me lose 25 pounds, I will be at  my lowest weight in over 10 years. If that’s not motivation to keep going, I don’t know what is.

I will probably call the doctor in the morning to set up an appointment to talk to him about my options. He’s been after me for a while to lose weight – I’ve gone in with knee problems, back pain, and my blood pressure is starting to creep up as well. I’m hoping we’re able to work out something that will get me on my way to being healthier and feeling better about myself.

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  1. I sympathize with your issue. Have you tried Weight Watcher’s Core plan? I follow it loosely, and it’s awesome! It’s very easy to follow (no counting/weighing/measuring!) and you really never have to feel deprived.

    I just want to warn you that phentermine is habit-forming, and for some people it is *very* habit-forming. When I was still in pharmacy, we had a number of patients who used it exactly as directed and still got a nasty addiction to it. It can be a good tool, but a dangerous one.

    Good luck, whatever you and your doctor decide to do!

  2. I definetly gain weight when I’m stressed 😦

  3. fast times at sweet valley high

     /  May 21, 2008

    @Trina – Thanks for the encouragement and the insight. I did see (read?) that some people became addicted to the medicine and its effects, and that is definitely something I would address with the doctor. He may not even prescribe it for me, or may have me come in weekly/bi-weekly to make sure I’m doing okay on it.

    @anon – I hear that!

  4. AshleyP

     /  July 4, 2008

    Have you considered Lap Band surgery? Its not as invasive as a gastric bypass and its not permanent but it works just as well!

    Ask your doctor about it!

  5. AshleyP

     /  July 4, 2008

    phentermine made feel really uppity for a few hours and then it just made me sick and I couldnt sleep..You don’t feel like eating but it makes you feel really crappy too!

  6. fast times at sweet valley high

     /  July 4, 2008

    @AshleyP – I did actually look into Lap Band surgery but I’m not quite heavy enough to qualify, plus I’m not sure I really want to go the surgical route just yet.

    I did end up getting a week’s worth of phen from my doctor, which was all he’d prescribe and after the first couple of days I didn’t seem to have as many side effects. I only took 1/2 of a 37.5 mg tablet a day though, so maybe that’s why.

    Now if I want to remain on phen (which I do, at least for a couple of months) I have to drive 90 minutes to the nearest weight loss clinic :-\ I really hate living in the boonies!!


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